Monday, May 16, 2005
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sometimes when the rain is just like this it takes me to a place I remember so very well.
Is it the smell of this chilled spring rain
or the tap and ambient drops of the sky hitting newly forming leaves...
maybe this amazing return to a green world out of the gray.
I see this valley,
the blanketed hills of thick growth of forest and underbrush,
the cool humid mist that hangs in the lowest curve in the feild.
I can feel the cool crisp creek water in which I used to build minature hoover dams
trying to create a pool big enough so as to dangle my pigeon-toed feet in.
brr it was like ice on the tips of my toes
to smell that damp earth again
to see this valley would be nice
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sometimes my heart has such a heavy longing
and i just can't quiet understand for what.
is it the past?
memories fading
maybe the future?
all my could be's
is it a love lost, or one not found yet?
that restless ever-longing burn in the center of my chest
tugs at me...
won't let me get comfortable
or leave me alone
sometimes I can't understand what it wants...
to connect to a forgotten past
run forward and embrace the future
to live
to be in the NOW
I don't know

but on night like this...
in the dark of my bedroom
as stray drops tap the panes of my windows
as I remember the lush green of all the springs past
my heart burns
longs
and leaves my soul so restless.
and all i want is to slip into my dreams
and tomorrow
wake up in the now.

Comments:

love those last lines...

# posted by  kristine : 9:10 PM

 

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